I have an awful lot of goals. Hopes. Aspirations. Dreams. Call them what you will, I have a bunch of them. They're not very grand either; they're each fairly simple. But as there are so many, and they all require the precious use of time-- sometimes they can feel daunting among the simple life I'm also living.
To name a few:
I want to know how to tend a garden and cook using food I've grown myself.
I want to invest time in music. It's a dream of mine to play the cello. I'd like to become more comfortable with the piano. I'd like to play the ukulele. and SING. Sing sing sing. And record my own favorites.
I'd love to learn more about photography. I love to take pictures, but I've never learnt much about the ins and outs of photography. How amazing would it be to perfect the use of light but also to find your own style?
I want to be extremely comfortable with making bread. One that is healthy (like the ones I'm learning about here) to the point that store bought bread is a treat, or a thing of the past.
I'd like to be a better writer and be more comfortable with myself as one. Try not to try so hard. And love it more easily. Haha.
I'd like to find more time for good reading.
I want to know how to edit video and to improve my skills of filming too. I'm not super worried about this one, considering my man is so excellent at both. But I think being a partner in it wouldn't be so bad. Especially when it comes to our own home videos.
I want to design houses. Okay... this dream is kind of big. Maybe just design a house of my own? And related to this... I would love to realize my true style in my home. Pinterest, you kill me.
I want to learn how to really sew. I'm grateful that I have the (very) basics down of sewing. But I'd like to quilt. To make things for my home. Make clothing, even.
I'd like to be consistently active physically. I am loving Zumba right now, but the consistency part is missing. darn that consistency.
But you know what desire trumps all the above?
I'd like to be a good mom.
I'm just beginning to appreciate what my sister Mica, mother of five, has been saying for years. "It will keep." I'm a mother first before all else. I may find my small moments to tinker away at the things I'd like to accomplish... but until my children are grown- it will keep. Accepting this has lifted a weight. I may not be considered a super-human-mother-creature-woman. But I will be a mom. And hopefully, a good one.
And perhaps in the mean time, my little desires will aid in my mothering and will help shape my children. We had our first snow today. So I strapped Peter to me, all bundled up, and we went out in the snow and took a few pictures. Win, win.
